I sat down on the couch in my living room. My Dobie, sensing that I was feeling low, came over and placed his head in my lap. I smiled down at him and patted the top of his head; tears welling up in my eyes. I took a deep breath and started to pray and meditate. Fifteen minutes later I stopped, thinking, "this is futile." I picked up my Al-Anon books and read the pages for today. One of the pages was on gratitude. Really? Gratitude? I began meditating on gratitude unknowingly; begrudgingly even. "What do I have to be grateful for this morning?" Nothing! I have a daughter whose heart is breaking...... and then I stopped feeling sorry for myself. The things I had to be grateful for came slowly at first and then they rushed in. I looked down at my Dobie knowing he was one of the things I can be grateful for. This morning, I offer you my alphabetical list of gratitude.
A is for Amy, B is for Bill, C is for Caring friends, D is for Dad, E is for Evening when I can rest my weary mind, F is for Felicia, G is Gratitude (that my Higher Power gave me this morning), H is for Helen, I is for Icing, J is for July (the month of my birth), K is for Kisses, L is for Laughter, M is for Mom, N is for good Neighbors, O is for Open Minds, P is for Prayer, Q is for Quiet time, R is for Rory, S is for Sara, T is for Troubled times that I can grow through, U is for Undying love that my Higher Power has for me, V is for Victory (knowing I don't have to fight the fight), W is for Wealth (and not the monetary kind), X is for Xander, and Z is for a Zest for life that hasn't been in my all my life.